I am happy. Despite my constant displeasure in humanity, pessimistic tendencies, extreme moods swings, frequent vocalization of my complaints, I am happy. Ultimately, I perceive the world in a negative way for no other reason than it has shown me time and time again it's eventual dark end. But my ultimate uneasiness towards the idea of an optimistic world fails to prevent me from experiencing the world's small, but fading light. It's confusing, difficult, and tiresome to live in this battling soul or live with a wavering soldier. I could tell you all the pain is worth the gain, but in all honesty, I'm daily discovering the overall worth. However, I do know that I am happy even though life brings me down sometimes. The world is full of people who have been in my same place. So, if you are one of us strange paradoxes, it's okay. If you don't like someone one day and love them the next, it's okay. If you can't stand the world one day, but enjoy it all other days, it's okay. If you obsess over social media for a month and think it's stupid the next, it's okay. People are collections of ideas and perceptions which at anytime, by any means can be altered. So one day you may think someone is the worst person you know, until it's two in the morning and you are sharing your life with them and see how understanding they actually are. For the only constant about life is life is not constant. It's so confusing, but that's why I am happy and I thought I'd share it with you because people should know current mood swings, rough sleepless thought-filled nights, lonely afternoons, or the occasionally frequent pity party, are a part of life. And just because you're sad for a bit doesn't mean you are doomed to live a sad life.
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